Eating Disorder- My Coping Skills

Hey everyone! Sorry it has been over a week since my last post (once again haha), I have taken some time off to really concentrate on myself. Over the last couple of weeks I have been trying to build a routine back into my life, organise to face some of my demons, as well as return to study! While it has been a tough journey, I am pleased to say that I feel like I am finally getting somewhere. As it is my first post back, I thought I would just do a short post about my past (and somewhat current) eating disorder, and how I cope with the challenging thoughts I come across.

As some of you may know, when I was around 16 years of age I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. I underwent family based treatment at the time of my diagnoses, however, it was the skills I learnt in the years after that treatment that have really helped me overcome such a scary illness.

  1. Eat fast! I know this may seem strange, but one of the most effective techniques I have managed to start using over the past few years is actually to eat fast. Now, although this may cause some indigestion, it actually enables me to be able to eat freely before the intrusive thoughts can suggest to me that eating is not okay.
  2. Have safe foods! This involves eating fruit and vegetables or whatever else you and your mind can consider ‘safe foods’. These are foods in which you can eat freely without feeling too guilty about. This is especially useful in the first instance of recovery when you might not be mentally strong enough to fight the thoughts that come with an eating disorder.
  3. Challenge your thoughts! This one may seem a bit obvious, however it can sometimes be very hard to do. For example, if you are eating dinner and your thoughts are telling you that you are going to gain 10kg, rationalise with yourself and really think about what the consequences of the meal in front of you are. Most of the time, it may involve getting rid of hunger pains, feeling energised, and actually helping with your serotonin levels (which help alleviate some of the depression symptoms that come along with an eating disorder).
  4. Eat with other people! I know that for some people struggling with eating disorders, this can be quite a challenging task. However, I find that having your meals with people surrounding you can actually help with the intensity of the thoughts you might get surrounding food.
  5. Get professional help! Once again this seems quite obvious, however for people with eating disorders (or any other mental health issues), they can find it quite hard to actually ask for help. Specifically for eating disorders though, workers are trained to teach you how to deal with having an eating disorder and can give you some really helpful hints for recovery.

 

That’s all folks. Let me know in the comments if you have ever tried to use these techniques, or if you have anymore that might be worthwhile sharing 🙂

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#depressioncoma

Hi all, Sorry it has been a while since my last post; sometimes life gets too hard to handle and I slip in to what my friends and I refer to as a ‘depression coma’. (Keep in mind this is not a scientific term). A depression coma, which could also be described as sleeping all day everyday, is something I have unconsciously developed overtime when life gets a little too stressful; or when my thoughts get a little too dark.

This involuntary reaction sometimes takes over my life and although it may seem beneficial at the time (for example, it could stop myself from self-harm), overtime it has proven itself to not be a very effective coping mechanism (particularly over long periods of time).

These long periods of being ‘uncontactible’, as well as associated symptoms (moodiness, restlessness, decline in appetite, and so on), leave my family and friends worried. To those family and friends who are hopefully reading this, please try to understand that these innate responses are not done purposefully, and I am not trying to hurt you.

I wake up most days to what feels like drowning in my own sweat, saturated by my own tears and feeling like I have wet the bed. I wake up feeling more exhausted than when I fell asleep because god damn, these nightmares are inescapable. I’m haunted by my own mind and there is seemingly no escape; sleeping isn’t even safe anymore.

I’ve been lucky enough to have gotten a lot of help from a lot of organizations and I should be fully recovered by now (or at least that is what it feels like), I’m just as disappointed in myself as the family and friends who constantly get sick of my shit. I’m still trying to give my all to this journey of recovery, but it’s getting hard when uneducated people are spreading rumours and trying to bring me down.

P.s- yes there are a lot of similarities between the symptoms of BPD and drug addiction but get your facts straight before accusing me of being addicted to ice (it hurts), it makes me feel like I’m being dismissed.

Also, sorry about this sloppy and incoherent post, I’m not doing too good at the moment and my brain word vomited.

A Little bit About me

Hey there! My name is Cody Mcnicol, I am a 19 year old Mental health student, living in Melbourne, Australia.

I am incredibly passionate about mental health and want to use this blog as a platform to not only help remove the stigma of people suffering from mental illness, but also to express myself in a healthy and productive way, (something I haven’t always been the best at).

I want to be raw and real with you guys; people need to know that they are not alone in this battle- there is always hope and there is always help available (I’ve only come to realise in the last few years). You are never alone and there is always someone you can reach out too, even when you don’t want to reach out to anyone.

Even when the grip of your bed is stronger than any force that has ever been present on this earth. Even when you’ve pushed every single person around you away in hopes that it would rid you of the guilt. Even when you can’t imagine living another day in this hard, brutal world. There is always someone who’s ready to listen, someone whose ready to offer you the right support and there will always be someone who loves you.

That’s enough of me blabbing on (insert audience laughter). Just to finish off, This is a piece I Wrote a couple of weeks ago, feel free to let me know how what you think 🙂

“It’s not the kind of sadness where you cry all the time, but more like the sadness that overwhelms your entire being; leaving your heart aching and your stomach empty. Leaving nothing but weakness and fatigue that no amount of sleep can cure. The sadness seeps into your dreams; almost leaving no escape.”
~escape anyway

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